Thank you everyone for your kind words on my last post. Looking back I'm a little worried that the whole thing came across as a plea for help, which I didn't mean it to be at all, except to the Universe in general. But I appreciate every one of you who is out there hoping for me. I am hoping for me, for us, as well.
And now for something completely different. January is almost over (holy crap!), which gives me 11 months on this side of 40. I'm not much for New Years Resolutions, but it seems like this would be a good time for some. So I made a half-bucket list. Not that 40 is the end or even that 80 is the end. But 40 is feeling momentous to me - like a potential reboot on my life, like a chance to do it all again. A whole other 40 years to live. The last 40. But before I get to that, this year I will:
* Take a class in how plot/structure a novel and see if I can write a good old-fashioned potboiler.
* Finish converting my household to non-toxic housecleaning and body care products.
* Undergo at least one cycle of IVF.
* Attend at least one adoption seminar.
* Put up three times as many tomatoes as I did last summer.
* Plant and successfully grow greens of some kind somewhere on my property.
* Rehabilitate my hair (which, more than any other physical part of me, has been killed by grief).
That's it. That's plenty for 39.
To be honest, I'd like to add "lose 10 lbs" to this list, but if I am taking IVF drugs, I don't think that's going to happen. And if I should fall pregnant (I love that phrase, you Brits and Aussies, "fall" pregnant, like going down a well or over cliff, oh how I wish I would...), I won't want to lose weight. So the half-bucket list stops there.
Nice thing about a blog - I can look back on this plan a year from now and not only see how I did, but also feel like I have to report back to you about it! Accountability could be a great motivator.
skip to main |
skip to sidebar
longing...
"...for the vanished girl her mother searched and visited all lands in turn. Where the girl was she knew not, but she reproached the whole wide world, and in chief the places where she had found the traces of her loss. She roamed the earth over in search of her daughter, by day and by night with torches, from sunrise until sunset, hour by hour. Bitter pain seized Demeter's heart, and she sped like a wild bird over the firm land and yielding sea, seeking her child. But no one would tell her the truth, neither god nor mortal men; and of the birds of omen, none came with true news for her."
- Ovid, Homer, others, me
- Ovid, Homer, others, me
pre-term labor awareness
gifts
3 comments:
One vote for kale as the greens you grow (I do mixed salad greens, never have any luck with spinach)—and call me if you need a canning buddy. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for a good tomato year. We haven't had much in the way of tomatoes for two summers now.
Greens are the best thing to grow! Depending on your climate, chard is a plant that keeps on giving (and can take cool, warm, hot, and cold again)
I am also trying to decontaminate our house. It's hard, especially when family doesn't understand.
I hope you only need one IVF.
haha i never plant enough tomatoes or if i do its always the little ones i plant too many of and never the big ones! silverbeet and spinach and rocket are the greens i find easiest to grow and they just keep coming back year after year. sounds like a great half bucket list to me , sending love xxx anne
Post a Comment