tender blindspot

My husband was listening to this song when I came home last night. I haven't listened to Peter Mulvey since before we lost the baby. And it really knocked me over, because I heard it in a whole new way.

Then I got up this morning and read Catherine W.'s post and the song began playing in my head again. So I'm sharing it here. A song for me and for Catherine. A song for Karen, Julia, Paige, Jess, Barbara, and all of you.

Tender Blindspot
by Peter Mulvey

It's cold, but at least the sun is out
Her breath hangs glowing in the air
She's standing at the car with the key in her hand
Like a sleeper coming back from somewhere

All at once, the weight has lifted
Forgotten the weeping all last night
She's wearing a frown borrowed from her father
Her head is tilted a little to the right

And it's just your tender blindspot
Not the ruination of your soul
As long as trees are skying
Tears are weeping seas to make us whole
Still you wonder why you're aching
Why you should go on, you just don't know
But it's just your tender blindspot
From that tender blindspot you must grow

The days are short and grey
It's the hardest time of year
And she must have missed the roadsign that said
"From now on, nothing will be clear"

And the whole day is calling
But she is frozen to the ground
There's something in the silence
There is something waiting to be found

And the morning dove is clinging
To the powerlines above
And time is hanging frozen
In its grace and pain and love