Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. I remember
MJ’s baby
Emily’s baby
Rosalea’s baby
Julia’s baby
Angela’s baby
Jordan
Lily
Finn
Cayden
Iris
William
George
Lucy
Georgina
Hope
Christian
Ezra
Tikva
Henry
Liam
Silas
Akul
Ferdinand
Clarence
Leila
Fionn
Caitlin
and all our other lost hearts.
I remember my girl, but I don't need a special day set aside for that. That's for always.
I do like that this day of remembrance is in October. Many traditions say that the veil between worlds is thinnest at this time of year. Between the world of the living and the world of the dead. Between the world of flesh and the world of spirit and magic. Between heaven and hell.
So people celebrate Dios de los Muertos, Halloween, All Soul’s, and All Saints. They look for ghosts. They stretch a hand through the veil—in prayer, in greeting, in curiosity. They sit for a moment with the unknown. They miss someone long gone. And then the calendar flips and the atmosphere thickens with winter holiday spirit, and this strange, sacred season passes until next year.
Except for those of us here in babylost land. We live with that thin veil daily, always reaching a hand across. It’s always October somewhere.
Today we try to make visible what is usually invisible. We say, as a group, that our children were here. That they are still here—as ghosts, spirits, magic, saints. As falling leaves and star dust.
And we say to one another, “I am here. I hear you.” We do say that to one another a lot, but hey, we also have a special day for it.
So I am here. I hear you.
And I see you, little babies. Peek-a-boo.
7 comments:
This is beautifully written Jenni.
Thank you so much for remembering Iris.
I'll be thinking of your sweet Angel Mae today. x
a wonderful post, Jenni. Peek-a-boo. Thank you for remembering Fionn. I remembered and listed like you only the other day... and you are right today is a special day, but it's not for any of us.
much love to you
xx Ines
Your words are so beautiful, Jenni. It is October 15th everyday for us, but it is nice to acknowledge our veil publicly. With much love to you. Remembering Angel Mae today.
What a lovely post and it is all so true. Thank you for remembering Akul. Angel Mae is very much in my heart and mind. I am thinking about all our beautiful lost babies today.
Candles were burning brightly here last night. It is true, it is October 15 for us every day but nice to make it extra special for a change.
Thinking of sweet baby Angel Mae.
What a beautiful post Jenni. I hadn't thought about the significance of October but, now that you have pointed it out, I do kind of like it.
They are still here.
And we are here.
Thank you for remembering my little girl and know that your daughter is remembered here in the UK this evening. xo
My candle is lit for Angel Mae, too.
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